ONE — It just takes ONE person to change your life. One person to walk in when everyone else walks out; one person to believe in you, or even one person to break you down and shit on you. But nonetheless, good or bad, it just takes ONE.
I am a firm believer that each person that walks in or out of your life, no matter how long they are or were there, has a purpose or a lesson to teach you. Sometimes it can be seen right away, and sometimes it takes years to figure it out.
You, Mom, are the ONE person in my life that has always been my day-one, my constant, my biggest teacher, and number one supporter. The thing is, I have seen a lot of children who don’t have near the relationship with their mom or dad that we have and I feel bad for them; you didn’t fill that role because you were forced, you did it because you wanted to.
Throughout my childhood, I watched you take on numerous roles and titles, some you shouldn’t have had to, and some that I never knew possible. You were never just my mom, and it’s funny, that’s all I wanted you to be. I just wanted you to be my mom, but you are so much more than that. I thank God every single day that I get to be your daughter – it is a privilege and an honor.
And even though you have thought many times that you have failed your children, there are so many children out there without parents, and I just think to myself, “it just takes ONE person to change their life”. I don’t think parenting is a pass/fail course, but effort is a pretty accurate indicator of passing. So every time you question your capability of being a “good” parent (whoever decides that), just know that you are my hero and you pass in my book.
The challenges you have overcome, the pride you refuse to let anyone crush, and the heart of gold that shines as bright as the sun – I hope to be half the woman you are, half the mother you are. I look up to you; you are my role model, my mentor. I hope to show my children a fraction of the love you have shown to us.
You have taught me endless lessons in the last 24 years I have been with you, but there are 5 that really stand out to me:
–No one defines you but yourself. The absolute hardest lesson I have ever had to learn took the most time. It drained me emotionally for years, and I know it did the same for you to watch me, but you did an amazing job of hiding it and being strong for me when I needed you the most.
–It’s okay to cry, but not in softball. I wear my heart on my sleeve, and I don’t have a poker face to save my life. You taught me to share my emotion, but there is a time and place. The softball diamond is never the place – even if you tear your meniscus or get drilled with a 65 MPH fast ball to the forearm. It’s okay, I’m tougher now. Ha.
–Sing even if someone IS listening. We share a love for music; singing on every car ride making up our own lyrics if we needed to. You have taught me to carry on whether or not anyone is listening; it is important to be yourself and make yourself happy.
–You are never alone. You have provided me with the knowledge and education to make my own decisions about my faith. You helped me see that even at rock bottom, it’s you and God.
–Love, like a circle, never ends. You have shown me nothing but unconditional love even on days you didn’t like me, and for that I am forever grateful. Your heart is pure and genuine – that’s all there is to it.
All I have left to say is I appreciate you.